If you could turn back the clock, knowing what you know now would you?  Seems like an easy answer doesn't it.  My life would be different in a number of ways because I know so much more now than I did back "then".  My life path has taken me on a hormonal journey that has been like one of those scary amusement park rides - part roller coaster ride and part like a trip to hell - either way you can't wait to get off.

If I knew then what I know now:
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	<li>I would have known that having a period every couple of months or so meant that I wasn't ovulating....</li>
	<li>And if I knew I wasn't ovulating, I might have asked my doctors different questions....</li>
	<li>And when my doctor told me that trying to have a baby "was a magical time" for my husband and I - I wouldn't have believed her....</li>
	<li>And if I didn't believe her I wouldn't have tried unsuccessfully to get pregnant for over a year without help....</li>
	<li>If I knew I didn't ovulate I would have figured out it was because my body didn't produce progesterone ....</li>
	<li>Once I realized my ovaries weren't the progesterone factories they were supposed to be I might have realized that my progesterone deficiency could cause me to miscarry my babies....</li>
	<li>Knowing that, I would have asked my ob/gyn the first time I got pregnant for natural progesterone even though he told me it was a placebo effect</li>
	<li>If I'd asked for the natural progesterone I wouldn't have shed a million tears over the two babies I lost</li>
	<li>If I'd known then that my body needed progesterone even when i wasn't trying to get pregnant I would have taken a saliva hormone test</li>
	<li>If I had taken the saliva hormone test I would have discovered that I was severely deficient in progesterone - the calming hormone</li>
	<li>And if I had known that the birth control pills my doctor prescribed for my PMS were going to make it worse I wouldn't have taken them</li>
	<li>And if I had known natural progesterone would "cure" my PMS in the first cycle I wouldn't have taken that prescription of Zoloft for 6 head-splitting, weight-gaining miserable weeks</li>
	<li>And if I knew then that postpartum depression isn't just depression but involves OCD and anxiety I would have known that my progesterone dose I was taking to prevent postpartum depression after my third baby was born was far too low</li>
	<li>And if I was on the right dose of progesterone I wouldn't have stayed awake nights thinking I was dying and that I was going to be leaving three babies without a mama</li>
	<li>And if I knew all of these things back then I wouldn't know about all the women suffering from infertility, miscarriages, PMS &amp; PMDD, and Postpartum Mood Disorder. I wouldn't realize that we need to change the way we think about women's hormone health. I would never have known that we need to start referring to postpartum mood disorder<strong>S</strong> (capital S) not the out-dated term postpartum depression.  I wouldn't have known to find my amazing naturopath who has helped my family in so many other ways.  I wouldn't have met some of the most amazing women on the planet. And I doubt I'd be blogging about hormone issues.</li>
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